Pregnancy

So this pregnancy was so much harder than with Sienna. I blame it all on lack of exercise. I am lazy. I run out of energy so quickly, just walking up a flight of stairs.
Alot of it was the same, such as not getting any morning sickness & really I did feel good until about the 6th or 7th month. I think I did get tired & sleepy more with this one. On the other hand I did not swell up this time, whereas with Sienna I had feet like Prncess Fiona from Shrek. I guess that's because of the heat of the summer. With Sienna I think I had more difficulty sleeping & trying to get comfortable. This time I haven't really even had to use the body pillow. Peeing is the same with both pregnancies. Waking at least every hour & half.

Sienna was a week late. I hope this one is a week early. But we shall see.

I am so bad about posting. I wish I can just have something recording her all day. This little kid talks like a 3 year old. The conversations we have are unbelievable. She is so stinkin smart. You just have to tell her something once & she will remember. She is just about 2 yrs & 5 months old.

I am due to give birth on the 29th. I wonder how Sienna will be with the baby. She is such a rough little girl, not at all gentle or delicate. She is constantly on the go, always runnng, climbing, always energetic. I just hope she doesn't hurt the baby by giving her rough kisses or grabbing her head or something. I really hope she loves her baby & isn't jealous or upset with us that she is not ours alone anymore. It breaks my heart to even think of her hurt.

Conversation

Me: Sienna let's go down by Oma"
Sienna: "So I can play with my tools"
Me: "Yes, so I can go to the drugstore"
Sienna: "to get Oma's medicine"
Me: Yes that's right"
Sienna: "I remember everything"

Ratting out Oma

Today I made a small cup of chocolate italian ice & sat down to eat it. Sienna comes running over & sits on the couch with me so she can share. As she's eating it she says. "No tell daddy. We be quiet. Shhh (with fnger to lips), we be very quiet".

Where did she get this? From Oma of course. When Oma sneaks her a cookie, she tells her "no tell momy or daddy, we be quiet". I think Sienna will be a good secret-keeper as she han't ratted out Oma, but I have guessed it. Someone had to have taught her.

Library embarassment

We went to the library today. Sienna loves going there. She is constantly getting books for me to read. She brings me a book titled "What are feet for". We are at a table, the librarian is at her desk next to us, another women with her kid at the other table. I ask Sienna "Sienna what are feet for?" Her reply: "for kicking mommy". The women burst out laughing. I said yes & when she kicks me it's always in my stomache.

On the way home I realized that they might be picturing this little girl just kicking me for no reason. I couldn't stop laughing to myself. What I really meant was when we are laying doen, she just can't be still, she's always kicking her legs or elbowing me. I guess I should have been ambarassed but it was just too funny.

This morning Jerry bought Sienna to bed with me. She actually cuddled with me for like 20 minutes. At one point though she started saying "I wanna kiss daddy",  "I wanna hug daddy"

Was by mommy's huse. I said "Sienna we have to go home. Mommy has to go buy oma medicine". She says "yeah Oma is so hungry"

When we got home in driveway, she takes a cookie out of her cupholder & says "I give Oma a cookie". A minute later "I want Oma be happy"

I put her in the crib for nap & a few minutes later hear "daddy...?, mommy...?, oma...?, where is evrybody?"

Play date

Sienna had her first real paly date today. Robyn, who I met on the Bump, came over with her son Aaron who is just a few weeks younger than Sienna. At first Sienna was a little nervous to meet Robyn. Yesterday when I told ther they were coming she kept saying "I no want Robyn come over" or "I want Robyn stay in kitchen with mommy". But after them being here like 2 minutes Sienna was chatting away to Robyn & Aaron. They were playing really nice most of the time. There were a few times were Sienna became possesive of her things, like her alphabet magnets, & want the letter Aaron happened to be holding. She got a little whiney, but was better after I fed her. Before they left Aaron & Sienna were in her room & Robyn asked Aaron to give Sienna her goofy & he threw a small tantrum. He was laying on the floor & got part of himeslf under the futon, his head mainly. I was envisioning myself pregnant lifting the futon. Luckily we were able to slide him out before he hurt himself. What was really cute was when Sienna started hugging him. At one point she tackled him to the ground in a hug. LOL It was a nice day. Hopefully we can do it again.

talk

I was putting my bra on in front of Sienna & she yells "Mommy I want a bra. Mommy buy me a bra and put it on my belly button"

In front of Babca & Dziadzu I ask Sienna if she wants a baby sister & she got so mad. She starts yelling " I no want a sista, I wanna bruder". Dziadzu says I'm going to have a problem if I have a girl. Hopefully she'll get over it quickly if that happens.

1st Beach day 2011

Jerry took off this Friday so we can go to the beach. We went to Long Branch. Went out to breakfast...Carolyn met us. I haven't seen her since the boys Bar Mitzvah so that was nice. Sienna behaved very well at breakfast. They gave some crayons & paper so it was a good distraction. She was quite talkative. We went our separate ways after breakfast because Carolun had plans. We hit the beach. Schlepped alot of stuff. Sienna played pretty nicely under the umbrellas in the sand. When we took her to the water she did not want to touch it. She seemed to be afraid of the waves & the rocks. She was even yelling at he birds to get out of the water, I think she was afraid they might drown. She was very clingy. I think we got off the beach about 2:00. We put all the stuff in car & then walked around trying to figure out what to eat. She was so tired she fell asleep in the stroller. All we got was pizza so that didn't take long. Then we stopped to get an iced coffee & she woke up. Crap that was only a 20 minute nap. By the time we got into the car to go she was wide awake. We hit alot of traffic on the way home. She whined all the way. She wanted music on, not this music, it's too loud, wah wha wah. It took 2 hours to get home. That was the longest 2 hours ever.

As soon as we got home we dropped her off downstairs & she was happy as can be. Put her to bed at 8:00, it took her almost an hour to fall asleep. I was hoping she would sleep through the night but nope...she was restless. She woke about 3:00, chatting up a storm. I think she fell back asleep within half hour. Then she got up again at 5:00. erry went to give her milk. He lay down with her on the futon & after about 10 minutes she siad "daddy you go pee pee, I go my crib" He told me that this morning & I was hysterical. When I put her to sleep that is how I get out of the room, I tell her I have to peepee.

more funny stuff

When she wakes up one morning she says "Where are we go for breakfast daddy?"
"Mommy's my best friend"
"My toes are clean. Daddy wash e in sink"
"mommy you have a problem?"
Jerry: "How about I put you on the blanket & pull you on the floor?" Sienna: "That a good idea."
Sienna: "Mommy I want to go in basement, put my shoes on"

A first Rainbow

Sienna saw her first rainbow today. She was so happy & interested. When it went away she got very upset.

Stuff she says

We are laying down on futon & I tell her she needs to go to the crib. She says "no mommy, i sleep here for a few minutes".

Heartbreak for Sienna

Jerry went to Florida for a few days. Before he left we told hher he was going & my God what a melt-down. "no daddy, don't go away!!" She was crying so hard I almost cried. It was so sad. When they were pulling away in the car she says "Dat eddie take daddy away", still sobbing. After hald a Mickey episode she calmed down.

Saved from the swing

I forgot to write...when we were by Teresa's, Sienna got so upset every time Zakary got on the swing. She was crying & running to him screaming & trying to pull him off the swing. Then she would hit the swing & say "bad swing". She was running back & forth from him to the door & now I realize she wanted him to not only get off but to get into the house. Probably because it was safe there.

Then a few days later Me & Jerry took her to the park. She played nicely at the jungle gym. Then she went walking on the stepping stones, then suddenly she saw the kids on the swings & off she went running to save the. She ran up to a baby yelling "baby out!" Jerry had to grab her & haul her away from there before some parent thought she wanted the swing to herself. She is seriously afraid & I don't know what ever caused this. Wonder when she'll get over it.

Finally shared the news

Friday: I went by Teresa's with Sienna's announcement shirt on. Evalina actually read it a few times & says that's cute, obviuosly not understanding. A little while later I told her Evalina the shirt is true. her mouth dropped, she was so excited. I told her tell your mom to read the shirt. As soon as Teresa read the front she quickly turns Sienna around reads it & the 2 of us start crying & hugging. She was so happy for me.

Saturday: I went by mommy with Sienna's announcement shirt on so Joanne could get the news. As soon as she read the front she too figured it out quickly. She says I know there are alwayys hidden meanings in stirts. Very happy for me. She took a picture of the front & back & texted Chris. Later that day Nancy posted on facebook, "I love it when little birdies tell me secrets".

Sunday: Ed & Cynthia came over yesterday & Ed says so are you going to go look at donors anytime soon. Jerry says, no actually we found the perfect donor, she's 5'2, Polish...Ed says who you?. I proceed to tell them about when I found out I was pregnant, why we didn't tell them, how we've been avoiding them at Dr's. They were understanding & so happy for us. We are all excited to be going through this together.

New Phrases

We were getting ready to go to the creperie for breakfast & she didn't want to go. She says "don't like crepee anymore"

I was putting on a dress & she was giving me a hard time. She says "because no like dresses"

I ask Sienna do you have poopers? She says "no, I'm all clean"

baby moving

No it is much too early to actually feel it moving but I have a feeling this one is going to be very active. We had ultrasound today...8wks5days. While we were watching the baby started wiggling its arms & legs. Right now the baby is about the size of a large raspberry with little stubs for arms & legs but they were waving to us. It was the cutest thing.

On another note Cynthia & Ed heard the heartbeat today. She texted me a few minutes later to say she was bleeding. I pray she is ok & doesn't miscarry. I reassured her I also had light bleeding for a day early on with Sienna. The Dr's weren't worried about it then & Dr. Miller didn't seem to be either. But it's impossible not to think the worse. She will be on this roller coaster til she's safely out of the 1st trimester.

I think we will tell them this weekend.

Feel bad bragging

I really want to share how wonderful Sienna's vocabulary is with my bumpees, but feel bad bragging about it because there are a few LO's with speech delay. How do I share my joy without them feeling badly?

I realize now that her vocabulary is way advanced for her age. It does not necessarily mean she is smarter, as there will be kids her age who beat her out in other milestones, such as potty training or pedaling a bike, putting on their clothes, etc. I don't think it means she's going to be any smarter than any other child in school.

Makes me wonder if LO-to be will the the total opposite.

Vocabulary of a 3 yr old

I just went to a site one of the girls posted on vocabulary milestones & it said at the age of 2 your child should have a vocabulary of 300 words. Sienna is in the 3-1/2 year age milestones. She is easily over a thousand words. She can count to 15. She gets up to about LMN in the ABC's. She says 6-8 word sentences.
She can sing:
Rain Rain Go Away
Happy Birthday
Rock-a-bye-baby
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Row Row Row your boat
I know I am missing a couple others. Some are alot more clear than others. She has an amazing memory.

Some funny things she says & does:
Last night Jerry was leaving her bedroom & she starts screamig & crying "daddy don't go away!"
When she falls she says "I'm ok"
I was sitting eating dinner & she wanted me to play. She comes up to me, grabs my hand & says "get up" very firmly.
Jerry was getting ready to leave for work. Sienna standing at his legs holding his pants says "daddy don't go work"

Awesome heartbeat

Nice to not have to worry about running into Cynthia & Ed at Dr. Millers this week. They are going different days because of Cynthia's work schedule. So me & Jerry got there around 7:30. The ultrasound was great. 165 bpm which is perfect. The baby is now just over the size of a blueberry. On the ultrasound it is starting to look human instead of like a reptile. It is so exciting to see.

Almost caught!

So Jerry last night spoke to Ed & supposedly Ed was going to work with Cynthia at 5:00 am & she would draw her wn blood & he would drop it off. So Jerry assumes he'll be by Dr. Miller by 6:30 when they open.

I left the house at 6:30 & got there by 7:00. I go to the front door & it's ocked. I was waiting out there almost 5 mintures & finally a paitent came out so I got it. I right away ask Carol if Ed has been there yet & she said no, why don't you go wait in the conference room. Thank God they are so understanding. She comes back there to get me 5 minutes later & says coast is clear. After she put me in the room she went to go open the front door & he was just walking up so she just took the vial from him & he didn't have to come in. OMG, what timing. If he missed one red light I would have been caught without an excuse in the world as to why I am there.

I can't wait for us to tell them so we don't have to sneak around anymore. I told Jerry, as soon as they hear heartbeat we should tell them. Le them enjoy their own excitement& then we can all celebrate together.

Heartbeat

Jerry went with me to Dr. Miller today to see ultrasound. It was pretty awesome because we got to hear the heartbeat already. Beat at 135. She expects that for next week it should be at least 150. It's so amazing that at this early stage the heart is beating. I am only 6-1/2 weeks. On the ultrasound it appears like a little flashing light. I'm so happy that this happened naturally. It is such a relief not having to worry about a donor or her background or medical history or if her characteristics will resemble mine. Also so wonderful not to have to take all those meds.

Will we move in time?

I am slowly starting to pack. No, we do not have a house yet, but eventually we will. Who knows when that will be, when I am exhausted & can't do any packing? Or Jerry doesn't allow me to? So I vow to pack at least all the things we do not use. I have a china cabinet that has stuff we never use. The rotisserie surely can go away.

It's really a good thing that we haven't been rushed nto making any desicions. I feel bad for those who have a limited time to find a home. I'd hate to just settle. At this rate I realize that this part of NJ you really have to make comprimises. One of the top things on our list aside from price is taxes. And then property size. I want a private lot...do not want to see my neighbors.

So will we find something before we have our new little one?

Gave Jerry the News!

I have been waiting to get the shirt as a way of telling Jerry about LO #2. He actually had to fly out to Arizona on business, leaving around 2:30 & I really wanted to tell him before he went. I called my brother this morning to ask him to find out what time Ken, our mailman will be on our street & told him I was waiting for a package to surprise Jerry. So he actually took the packages with him on his route & told me to pcik them up.

We spent the morning out at breakfast & then the park. On the way back we stopped at Peter's route. Jerry just thought I wanted to show him a cute outfit I bought Sienna. So we get home, he's cutting the grass & I get Sienna dressed in her new shirt. He came in, took a shower & then came to the living room & was playing with Sienna. All the while I am sitting there watching his facial expression. He read the front of her shirt but was making no attempt to read the back. I told him to read the back. He did...and nothing. I said "did you read it?" & he read it again. I said are you understanding what it says & he says "that she's going to be a big sister" but he really wasn't getting it yet. But he was just looking at me curiously. I said I am pregnant. He said he didn't want to make assumptions. Then he was hugging me & all happy. I just couldn't believe he didn't get it right away. He said he thought maybe I just got her a shirt way ahead of time. Pretty funny. So he found out an hour before he had to leave for a flight.

Sneakiness

So not only do I have to be sneaky from Jerry, but Ed & Cynthia are seeing the same Dr. & had IVF today, so from here on out I have to be careful not to run into them. I do not want them to know I am pregnant yet. I really want them to know if they are pregnant first. If they knew I was pregnant & for some reason it doesn't work for them, I feel like it will hurt them even more. I also don't want to jinx anything. I will pray for them every day that they get pregnant. How awesome would that be if we were pregnant at the same time. We would be 2 weeks apart. That would be crazy. But it would be fun to compare how we are feeling & our plans for the near future & to just give each other support.

Another positive!

Jerry went to work & I took off. Dropped Sienna at my mom's & off to Englewood for bloodwork.

Carol, the nurse looked at the sticks & said they are positive. She did the bloodwork & said to wait, that Dr. Miller might want to do utrasound. She did. And sure enough I have a sac. So now I go back Friday to see how levels are rising. Then I think next week I go for another ultrasound to look for the yolk.

I am so happy, yet I still have to keep my feet on the ground because it still might not happen. I can't believe that we are so ready to move on with IVF & a donor & now at the last minute I might be saved by my own body. I have been getting depressed lately wondering how long we'd have to wait.

I found the perfect way to tell Jerry. I found a shirt for Sienna saying "a little birdie told me a secret" on the front & the back "that I am going to be a big sister". I hope to get it by Saturday & just dress her in it, & watch him closely. This is going to be so great. I jipped him of that total surprise with Sienna. He actually found out before I did because the stupid nurse left a message on our machine & he heard it first. This time I can totally shock him. I am even playing it off like I have my period so he doesn't suspect anything. I can't wait for the package to arrive.

My miracle

Since my last RE appt, we have been playing the waiting game...waiting til they find a donor for us. So I haven't even been keeping track of my period. Today though for some reason I started to think I should have gotten it by now. I was out so I bought a pregnancy test kit. Got home, looked at the calendar to figure out the last period, wether I should wasye the test or not. It seems like a 31 day cycle. I will not get my hopes up. I do a test & almost immediately see a + sign. I start to cry a little, but stop myself because it's probably not right or I am not reading it right. An hour later I do another one. Another +. !!!!!!!!!!!!! So I call the RE & tell them & they said to come in tommorrow for a real test. I can't tell Jerry yet. If it's true I have to find a special way to tell him.

the next American Idol

This girl can sing! Today it's raining out. She standing in her tower & starts singing "rain rain go away come again anoder day", just like that! I know Oma sings that to her whenever it rains. She hears the words enough & then suddenly one day puts them together herself.

She also sings "ring a rosie, pocket rosie, ashes ashes all fal down"

And the 1st couple verses from rock-a-bye baby see post below.

Bedtime

I still lay down with her to sleep every night. She lays on top of me, her back to my chest. I usually tell her a story even when the lights are out. Then we talk. I kind of go over what happened during the day & ask her questions. She'll at least twice tell me "hug", that she wants to hug me & roll over & hug me.

Lately we have been praying. I am teaching her "our Father". It started with me telling her about her Opa, that he is in heaven with Jesus & she would repeat me. Then I actually started having her repeat the words of the Our Father. The other day out of the blue she says 'ow fadda who ut in heaven be di name daily bread" What!!!!!!!!!! A priest aught to see this. 20 months old & praying. When she says how excited I get she gets a cute shy sile on her face.

Then when she starts getting tired, she starts scratching her head. She used to like me to scratch it for her but now I must not do it good enough because she moves my hand & she has to do it. But she does like me to play with her nose or her ears or gums. Eventually she fals asleep & I have to manuever myself out of a laying down position with a baby in my arms to standing & slowly get her into her crib without waking her. As soon as I put her in, I drop to the floor so in case she opens her eyes she doesn't see me otherwise if she catches me she's instanly on her feet crying.

Lately I have been wondering how to break this habit. I haven't been in a rush because  am a bit selfish. I like to end the day this way, with us all cuddled & her all peaceful. Today for her nap she drove me nuts because she wasn't falling asleep so I put her in the crib & left. Oh she cried so hard I wanted so badly to go back in & hug her & cuddle her. But I didn't. She fell asleep within about 10 minutes. This evening I lay down with her for a while & she was a little restless & wanted her sippy so I told her it's in the crib, do you ant to go in the crib, she said ok. I put her in, she lay down to drink t & I left. She fell asleep within 5 minutes. OMG, I love t but I also am afraid what if it's the end of nightime cuddles. sniff.

"nice n wom"

I was changing her diaper this morning. I had my fleece on.
She touches it & says "mommy jacket?"
I say "yes, mommy is cold"
She rubs the fleece & says "nice n wom"
Of course I get all giddy & she gets all proud with lots of smiles.

Sienna 20 months old, singing Rock-a-Bye Baby

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She just blew my mind today. I was video taping her asking her some questions & told her to sing because she does lalala so nicely. Suddenly she starts to sing Rock a Bye Baby. I almost cried. It's not a song I sing to her often but Jerry's mom does sing it enough. I just can't believe how many words she actually knew. Up to this point the longest sentence she has said was 5 words. This was like 10. My little smartie!

Puking

If I put up a post for every time Sienna pukes, I'd have a book made by now. So babies/children have 20 deciduous teeth up they get their second teeth. I am betting she pukes at least 3 times within the coarse of a tooth coming in. That means by the time she has all her teeth I will have cleaned up puke at least 60 times. All I can say is thank God we don't have carpeting in her room. That would have been thrown out the window by now! I have already thrown out 2 pillows. I have washed the futon cover numerous times before I smartened up & put a blanket on top of it. At least now I just rip that off & throw it into the washer, instead of having to struggle unzipping & removing the cover. I think she has 14 or 16 of them now so once she gets them all I am gonna throw a PARTY! The end of the puke party!

Get me the Moon

Me & Sienna were looking out the window & she says "moon". Of course I didn't see it since it was just a sliver, but sure enough it was there like a happy face in the sky. She says "get it". I say I can't reach it.  She says "reach it...daddy....get it". Yep, she knows if I can't reach something usually daddy can. I told her he'd get it for her when he gets home.

Hair

So for the last few weeks I have been totally hating my hair. Hate, hate, hate, but I keep procrastinating & doing nothing. FINALLY yesterday (Saturday) on the whim I call the salon & holy moly they have an opening with my girl. I'll take it!!!!!!!!!! Who would have thought they'd have something on a Saturday. Turns out someone cancelled 2 minutes before I called & my girl was thrilled she didn't lose a client.

So what do I want? Well being that my hair is getting darker as I get older I am no longer a blonde. Since I am a slacker with keeping up on my hair I decide to go for dark. Not super dark but the color of my roots, with some highlights to keep it as maintenance free as long as possible. The result..I LIKE IT!. I'm not sure if anyone else will since everyne is so used to me as a blonde but I think it is refreshingly different & healthy. Oh & the cut is really cute too. This is what I usually say until I actually wash it & try to style it myself. Let's hope I like it tommorrow.

You've Come a long way baby!

Here's where it all began.

Now look where she is...

More Potato Please

Dec. (17 mths)
She cracks me up with the words she picks up. She hears me saying "get it", stores it & eventually she knows when to use it.

Interviewing Sienna

Around 16-17 Mths

I have to keep her in a highchair when I videotape her, otherwise she gets restless & loses focus. Pay attention Sienna, these interviews are very important.

Toofers

Look at all those toofers. Look at that million dollar smile. Not quite sure how many she has. All I know is it's too dangerous to stick my fingers in her mouth to attempt to count. She clamps down like an alligator. She has at least 14. I can't wait til teething is over!